Akira Sendoh 07

Hello AS7, I received a great “jia you” from weiting yesterday. I guess you saw it too right? Do not be envious or jealous. Because it is for keith only. Suddenly, I am surrounded by caring friends after they have viewed what I told you. Thank you all for supporting me. But I think I must specially thank weiting. I guess it is a good feeling to know that you have somebody supporting and caring for you. AS7, do you agree? Thanks to weiting. For your undying and never-ending support, the bright belt and the alot of white ankle socks. I believe I will start wearing them soon. I think my mother is starting to guess if you are opening a specialist shop selling socks. The handphone ear piece is working well. I love it. I love everything you have given me. Thanks for being there for me. i know it is tough doing all these right? Although I always disturb you, I know you are always there for me. Thanks. But one thing. Your silly acts are really very attractive. I love them. Adious.

AS7, I am very tired. I suddenly got the urge to let go of everything and just sleep my life away. I am really overloaded by my 22 AU course. Should I take up another 20 AU course? Can I cope with it? Jonathan, should I? Or should I be like you and be happy with what I have? I am feeling alone and scared now. Alot of questions with no answers. Never have I felt so insecure. Could it be a sign or maturity? Thinking about things I never thought would bother me?

I went for the CV2702 laboratory session just now. And I did not understand anything the laboratory technician was talking about. I was totally lost and alone. I did not know who to look for. So I just came to LWN library to talk to you. I guess even if the whole world was against me, I would still have you. At least you. You would just listen quietly and not answer back. No questions. No enquiries. No doubt. Nothing to rebutt me.

I guess I am losing my motivation and will power. I guess I seriously need the 21km run desperately fast to have ample time and space to think properly without being disturbed. I cant wait for it to come as soon as possible.

Hello AS7, today is the 2nd day of the new school term. I am feeling very lerthagic and lazy and starting to fall asleep during classes already. Thank boon seng for waking me up yesterday but maybe you can be a little more polite instead of just whacking me? keke… I cannot be slacking anymore. In the last 2 semesters, I have slacked too much. Maybe it is the time for me to catch up?  I seriously hope that it is not too late. I am starting to miss alot of tings, think I am getting lovey dovey and mushy. I am beginning to miss some of my friends whom I have not been seeing alot of recently. I am missing basketball. I am missing shopping already when I have only shopped a week ago. But my budget for this month has been burst. I must control until next month. I think I need alot of self-control this month. So to all those around me, please help me to turn on the control button. And gals who only want money, get lost. I am only a poor student.

Hello AS7, I am back from basketball action. Nothing much happened today. Just horse handling and basketball. Nothing really happening or what but I guess I am starting to have a new love in mind already. My new love is neither human nor an item, it is retail therapy. I have fallen in love with shopping. I guess I really need something for me to vent my frustrations and unhappiness on. Recently I found a great place to shop at. I purchased an Armani Exchange shirt for only $34.90 and an Abercrombie & Flitch (A&F) jacket for only $39.90. On top of that, it is on a buy 3 get 1 free offer. Thanks colin for taking another 2 pieces to complete the 4 pieces. Today joey told me that A&F is not a cheap brand like I thought it was. It is an american brand that is on pile with Singapore’s topshop. I did not expect it to be of such a high class. I am loving my new jacket. It is also my reward for getting past every subject in the last semester. Kappa Great Britian jacket in the first semester and A&F jacket in the second. Although I did not do well, at least I scraped through unharmed. I must keep up the tempo. But I do not want to indulge in retail therapy too much. That is why I am setting a monthly limit for myself. $100 is the maximum I can spend a month on anything unnecessary. This includes clothes, gel, wax and others. I must try to control myself before I get out of control. jia you. School starting on monday. sian… I must be a good student this semester. I cannot be enjoying myself all the time. jia you… Can anyone help me to pull through the semester unscarred and untempted?? Anyone??

Today is the ultimate day when I experienced a series of total up and down and boredom. I spent whole day at home alone facing the computer and munching on the tanariva cake and madelines. They taste yummy but they did nothing to help relieve my boredom. But I have to thank carin, shihui and summer for chatting with me on msn the whole afternoon. After that, I got ready to meet audrey. Before that I met up with alan to have my haircut and kangli to update each other on our recent happenings. It is so nice of you to wait with me for audrey to no avail.

audrey. i do not know why u did not come and missed informing me in advance or at least let me know when I sent you a message. I was waiting for ur reply. But I guess the silence is self-explanatory? Maybe it is something I did to irritate you without myself realising it. But I got to thank u anyway. You have made me think about what I really want in the time I was waiting for you. Perhaps I should not be wasting my time doing silly things and irritating people? eugene, yes you joey’s boyfriend, just in case you do not know I am talking about you. I remember the time when we were sitting at philly’s flavours & chatting after i knock off work. I remember why you are keeping your body so fit. And I will try to put that into practice, starting with the 21km run. I must at least cut down my tummy and increase my muscle mass. At least I have got an aim in mind now.

In additon to that I got to thank you kangli, for accompanying me all night and putting up with my vulgarities. I think I am really very pissed off recently. I am always in a bad mood. I guess I need some anger management sessions. Or maybe some cooling off from the work at bakerzin will help? I need time off. I need people to accompany me on my off days. So who is on to accompany me? I am feeling very lonely and helpless. Can someone rescue me from this black hole of loneliness??

Today is the ultimate day when I experienced a series of total up and down and boredom. I spent whole day at home alone facing the computer and munching on the tanariva cake and madelines. They taste yummy but they did nothing to help relieve my boredom. But I have to thank carin, shihui and summer for chatting with me on msn the whole afternoon. After that, I got ready to meet audrey. Before that I met up with alan to have my haircut and kangli to update each other on our recent happenings. It is so nice of you to wait with me for audrey to no avail.

audrey. i do not know why u did not come and missed informing me in advance or at least let me know when I sent you a message. I was waiting for ur reply. But I guess the silence is self-explanatory? Maybe it is something I did to irritate you without myself realising it. But I got to thank u anyway. You have made me think about what I really want in the time I was waiting for you. Perhaps I should not be wasting my time doing silly things and irritating people? eugene, yes you joey’s boyfriend, just in case you do not know I am talking about you. I remember the time when we were sitting at philly’s flavours & chatting after i knock off work. I remember why you are keeping your body so fit. And I will try to put that into practice, starting with the 21km run. I must at least cut down my tummy and increase my muscle mass. At least I have got an aim in mind now.

In additon to that I got to thank you kangli, for accompanying me all night and putting up with my vulgarities. I think I am really very pissed off recently. I am always in a bad mood. I guess I need some anger management sessions. Or maybe some cooling off from the work at bakerzin will help? I need time off. I need people to accompany me on my off days. So who is on to accompany me? I am feeling very lonely and helpless. Can someone rescue me from this black hole of loneliness??

Hello AS7, I am back with more updates. I just go back home from a tuition session with Shawn. I am seriously thinking that maybe I am not really suitable for the jobs that I am holding on to now. Ok. 1 at a time. Tuition first. I am losing my patience with Shawn. He is slow in learning but I am fine with that. But I cannot take it that he is starting to show attitude problems and signs of giving up. This is making me lose interest in teaching him. Melvin, on the other hand, is fine. I enjoy coaching him as he is fast and learns really easily. But just that he can get into a state of lack of confidence some times. Overall I think he was just lazy. It is my job to change that. Although it is really straining on the mind but for the sake of money, I think I just got to do it anyway. Where on earth can I find such a high paying job? Then horse handling is tough too. I feel that I do not have the physical strength and the mental tolerance required for the job. Then Bakerzin. I tink I am losing my interest in the job and I am getting impatient with the lowly $5 pay. Even a McCafe barista is earning $5.50 an hour. I think that I have learnt all I can there. Maybe it is time to move on? But I cannot bear to part with the pastrys & cakes I can get and the relaxed schedule. I think I will just hold on to this and see how it goes. I must jiayou!!! gambatei!!! I must prove others wrong. I must prove that I can do it. Cheers to hanging on!!!

Hi AS7, I am back from KTV with thomas, joey and eugene, elaine and e new addition of shareen. It feels nice to be adding in new blood, making out group bigger, especially one who can pose elaine some positive challenge in the high pitched songs. But I guess I hit my high too late. Only when we are going to leave.  臭男人 & 只對你說 really made me scream out what i am really feeling deep down inside. Maybe I only want to be a bad guy and enjoy tormenting all around me? Haiz… Maybe I should really heed joey’s suggestions and start without them for about two hrs and hit my peak by the time they come in. Thanks priscilla, you have made me a more independant and strong person. Sorry for imposing myself on u. It wont happen again. Take care to one and all out there. Adious…

Hello AS7, I am back to update you again. Today is the second day I am receiving the full sum of $15/hr. It feels really great to be a qualified horse handler. I do not need to be the trainee anymore. But today I suffered two accidents that threatened to end my career. I got stepped on my left foot by the horse I was handling when I was leading it into the barrier. Guess it is a lack of control on my side allowing it to rush in. Haiz… Then I got the full impact of a side kick in my jaw from another horse who cut my lane. Super angry. But never did I expect the impact to be so powerful. I was literally kicked off the ground and I can feel my hang time. Then I just lied on the ground totally in shock and pain. Before I knew it, I was surrounded by the doctors and lifted off the ground in a stretcher and brought to the clinic but the doctor just helped me put on a plaster and told me to walk back to the starter and see a dentist tomorrow regarding my teeth. I guess I cannot really trust them. I am going to the doctor tomorrow. Maybe alone. Because someone do not seems to be able to accompany me. Haiz… Lonely me…

Hi to everyone. Hi AS7 once again. I gave you up once due to silly comments from silly people. But the new me has decided to start it all over again and leave my sad past behind. I will be the cool and suave me once again. Bravery and reborn rules. I wont let them affect me anymore. So I am picking you up once again AS7. Today I went over to give Melvin his weekly dosage of tuition. I must really comment you. You are picking up really fast. Just do as you are doing when you are with me and you will have no problems. Go along and show your mother some results in the up coming class test. Show her the new "YOU". I got faith in you. And I must thank the lots of people who have shown me care and concern when I am down and out. Many thanks to priscilla for increasing my income. I enjoyed that day with you although some accidents came along to try and spoil our day. Anyway, whatever dont kill you makes you stronger. Dont forget that. But I still dont understand why you dont like tiramisu. Hehe.. I hope that your brother will cooperate with me to improve his grades so tat I can continue teaching him next year. Abit selfish hor. Lol… Thanks Joey and Thomas for accompanying me through everything. Kangli you are not forgotten. Thanks for your uncle-ly naggings. Go for your pinky. And thanks Jieru for your encouragement. You guys and many others that I accidentedly forgot to mention have been great 2 me. I know it. I dont say doesnt mean i dont know. It’s all in my heart. And I look forward to seeing you all soon. That is if I can manage to get some off days. Really busy juggling turf club, Bakerzin and tuition. You all must take care. jia you!!!